I love the cold.
I do.
Winter has been my favorite season since I can remember anything.
Winter is for snow and ice.
Winter is for skis and skates and stick & puck.
Winter is for boys.
You haven’t read “Boys of Winter?”
Spring is for flowers.
I like lavender. And girls named after flowers.
Like Magnolia and Lavy.
Like Lily.
Summer is for play.
I like to play. Soccer is my favorite.
Camilla is my neighbor and she is the most fun one to play with.
She is beautiful and I love her.
Yes, with everything I am.
Fall is for leaves.
I don’t love fall because I don’t LOVE raking.
But I do.
I rake.
Hungover and happy and helpful.
Because I love my mom. Lady doesn’t want leaves inside.
So I do, I rake and I like fall.
I do.
But, the cold.
I love the cold.
Even though, that happened in the winter.
Even though, this season he won’t be at the outdoor rink.
Or next.
He died.
And I love/d him. With everything I am. 5ever.
But, we can still build a fire and we can laugh and we can talk and we can share. Because loving is fun and grieving is hard.
Winter is cold.
I love the cold.
Because it is quiet and it feels safer,
I know how to get warm.
I do.
I have spent my whole life learning how to get warm. I get warm.
I used to love Earth day.
There were cool assemblies and we would learn how to recycle.
Reduce.
Reuse.
Now it reminds me of him. <3
That’s okay, because I recycle.
I hope we get to relive.
Because I miss him, a lot.
Everyday.
I do.
I do not like to gamble.
Especially, not with my life.
But I do.
I ski.
I snowboard.
I do.
I love with everything I am because I do.
I am.
Zoe Luna
